tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8204988994647648157.post8841065955993608139..comments2023-09-29T08:35:22.463-07:00Comments on Moonbeams and Eco-Dreams: Breast Cancer: How My Body Knew Before I DidMoonbeams and Eco-Dreamshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08921310649674603891noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8204988994647648157.post-37413155848802104802014-03-09T20:02:46.745-07:002014-03-09T20:02:46.745-07:00Fascinating, as always, and I agree with you about...Fascinating, as always, and I agree with you about the initiation. I actually just wrote a post about Carl Jung, his early traumas and his evolution as a shaman. I do see that archetype as fitting you - it has been a long hard road since childhood for you, and I do not feel this is random or accidental, or karma (in the sense of having to do "balancing" as people like to call it!). You have the visions, the dreams, the deep, chakra-tearing conflicts for which there is no way out except through...this is the archetype indeed. It is so much harder for the "modern" because there is no forest, no hut, no bathing in the icy stream, no banishment from the village...except there is, but in ways that don't fit the "book" that the indigenous people were given. We have to piece it together, and I think you are doing this. Bless you, and keep in touch. CarolSilkhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06189952287869519341noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8204988994647648157.post-78516617792764596162014-03-02T06:02:50.329-08:002014-03-02T06:02:50.329-08:00Hi Carole,
Thank you so much for your support. I ...Hi Carole,<br /><br />Thank you so much for your support. I am always grateful for your insights.<br /><br />I think you are right, as you so often are when you sense something about me, that I did know there would be this battle. When I was thinking about having a child I kept going back and forth. I knew something was going to happen that was going to challenge my ability to be the kind of mother I wanted to be. It wasn't a pre-cognitive knowing that the child would be special needs. Honestly I didn't see that coming and I'm glad I didn't. It had to do with me, but I didn't know what specifically. I ignored it and proceeded forward because I wanted a child and I'm glad I did. <br /><br />I'm glad to hear about your screening. Several women have told me they've sought out screenings since I started speaking openly about this. I have wondered if that was the right thing to do because of privacy, but that makes it all worth it. <br /><br />Thank you so much for your prayers. I hope you are right, that the road ahead will be easier when this is done and that I will have more peace. Right now it is hard to even see the road, but it is good to be reminded that it is there. <br /><br />You know how I like to look for archetypes to get me through difficult times, like the Madonna and child when A. was regressing? In my mind I have related archetypically related chemotherapy shamanic initiation. In indigenous cultures they take the initiate close to death, tax his mind and body to the point of extreme strain, close to a breaking point. Then, if he survives, he emerges stronger and ready to serve his community. For some reason that archetype comforts me right now. Moonbeams and Eco-Dreamshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08921310649674603891noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8204988994647648157.post-86763988435385559042014-02-19T10:12:30.839-08:002014-02-19T10:12:30.839-08:00Hi Moonbeams,
Needless to say, your post has floo...Hi Moonbeams,<br /><br />Needless to say, your post has floored me! I am not surprised about your precognitive dreams, given your well-known gifts and having these kinds of dreams in the past. It is also easy to see how much of your anxiety in the past - a state of "hyperawareness" one might say, has likely been precognitive as well...that is, you always sensed/knew at some level that there was going to be this "other battle', as well as the challenges with autistic son Alex. <br /><br />I am going for my mammo screening Friday, after putting it off, and reading your post has certainly confirmed that I won't be changing my mind. I too have endless lumps, having fibrocystic breasts, so I know how easy it is to get impatient with oneself and decide not to bother. I'll be thinking of you, and sending you my prayers. I think once this is behind you, the Road ahead will be much easier, with more peace.Silkhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06189952287869519341noreply@blogger.com